We’ve come to the end of the week-long blog swapping experiment between me and Alexander. And so I have a few preliminary observations before I return to Parking Lot:
1. It feels like a thing
I was surprised how much it felt like someone else was in my house. This is an inexplicable feeling, for as Alex pointed out early in the week, there is no real “space” in cyberspace. And yet, I think our brains are not yet wired to think of the Internet as “vapourware” We have to find a physical correlation between web sites and physical locations in the world. Thus we use terms like “building,” “under construction”, “site”, “home page”, and so on to describe this non-space. And because our interactions on the Internet are couched in these metaphors, it seems that my website is actually a place, and Alex has been over there rearranging the furniture while I’ve been raiding his fridge and leaving notes on the back of the door.
2. I’m attached to my weblog
This is perhaps the most interesting learning. I couldn’t help feeling a little disconcerted that Alex was writing on my blog, and that the site seemed to be updating itself without me. It felt a little as if my online identity had been poached, and as a result I actually added a “posted by” field at Parking Lot so people would know who was writing there.
This has nothing to do with the quality of Alex’s posts over at Parking Lot, which were excellent and even created a pretty substantial comments thread in one case. It’s just that I had a hard time giving up my weblog to someone else, perhaps worried a little that people would mistake Alex’s voice for mine, or more precisely maybe a fer that that my voice would turn out to be less important than I thought it was. How’s that for some honest ego searching?
Also, I was reluctant to post stuff here that continues a narrative thread from other things I have been doing at Parking Lot. I already wrote about this in this post’s comments.
3. Testing, testing…is this me speaking?
I know Alex trusted me to write what I wanted to in this space, but I have to admit that I wasn’t sure exactly what to do here. Should I try and build on things he was doing, like post something on happiness? Should I follow my own interests, like posting something on Aboriginal music? Should I try to do something new? I tried it all out.
Over time, I’m sure my voice would have settled down in this space, but it’s like wearing clothes that look good on someone else: they affect how one carries onself, and it comes through as maybe seeming inauthentic. How much of what I wrote here was honest-to-goodness blog fodder and how much was contrived for the experiment? How much arose because I was writing in an unfamiliar place, heavily influenced by another’s voice?
And what about design? I designed Parking Lot to work specifically for the kinds of writing I do. Therefore I use another typeface when quoting and I have lots of whitespace, which enourages expansive thinking. Alex’s blog is not designed for my style in particular, and it’s interesting to note that I actually wrote differently here than I would have at Parking Lot.
4. Ahhhhh…
Perhaps the best analogy I can make is that it feels a little like the expereince of trying a new pair of pants on. In the dressing room at the clothes store, you can get a sense of how the pants look and feel but you really have no idea how they will wear in the real world. Plus, new pants are scratchy and uncomfortable. After trying them on it’s always a relief to get back into the old pair of jeans you wore into the store. Now I wouldn’t say that this experiment has made me want to get into Alex’s pants (though he is an attractive guy!) but the metaphor “wears” well and has “legs” for me anyway!
(I should have punned more….!)
5. In conclusion, I’d like to thank the Academy…
Well, Alex anyway. I was totally unsure of this experiment and decided to just plunge into it without any agenda. I’ve actually learned a lot about attachment, the true nature of the Internet and the limitations in the metaphors we use to conceive of “webspace.” Alex has added some great stuff to my blog, and I hope what I’ve put here won’t be purged from archives!
So thanks Alex for letting me play around here and for conceiving the idea in the first place. And thanks to our readers who have scratched their heads all week wondering what the hell we were up to.
I invite Alex to post his findings at Parking Lot.
Cheers!
Chris